Saturday, November 6, 2010

Working Through a Senior Year Crisis

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight"
Proverbs 3:5

happy mini me

Ah, it felt so good to have a nice long 2+ hour brunch today...haven't had one of those for a while. Us grandma seniors and sophomores sat around talking about elementary & middle school days. Topics included: good books we read (Boxcar children!), cakes & flowers for "becoming a woman" HAHA, using rice instead of glue for our school projects, and for one person, racing not boys, not girls, but men at the track and beating them when she was in middle school hahhahaha. Such good carefree days!! I miss reading for fun, I used to read like crazy when I was younger...

We also talked about looming post-college life :( I've been mad stressed about the future and feeling indecisive, but I'm finally starting to accept that I can't plan everything out right now. I make a schedule every night for what I'm going to do the next day. I don't necessarily stick to it, but I really enjoy making schedules and knowing I have a plan haha. I also really like making lists (hence the name of the blog). I've been trying to schedule the rest of my post-college life b/c I feel like I have to plan everything out right now and know each step, even though I can't really control what's going to happen.

happy & optimistic at my sixth grade graduation
stressed out & getting yogurt pretzels from Subin at 2 am to fuel my thesis proposal writing process :(

I've realized I am way too indecisive and need to trust in God! Life after college is not the end of the world, and I know I'm probably gonna look back on this time 5 years from now and think about how foolish and unnecessarily stressed out I was haha. Until now, I thought I had a set plan for my future, but I realized I have to be flexible and open to other options. These past few weeks definitely made me see that I have a lot of growing up to do. Even though I know things will probably get crazy second semester, I will find my peace in the Lord and trust that He will guide me...


  1. AHH i want to take a giant bite out of mini chakhae. man, who's that crazy person racing strange men? same person whose mom requested the teacher to let her pee without first raising her hand and asking for permission? :)

  2. HAHAHAHA facial expression in the first picture cracks me up, looks familiar ;) & bet those were your glory days in middle school, oh man.

    I liked this post though & glad you've come to these realizations :) I felt like all your posts for awhile were so depressing :|

    HAHA you look so cracked out in your last picture :)

  3. i love the pictures jackie :)

    i am also glad that you came to those realizations. you are a really smart, talented girl! :)

  4. i remember you saying you were in your prime in 6th grade. LOL

    post-grad life is definitely not an end, but it makes you appreciate being a free undergraduate. enjoy your senior chakhae..have more brunches =)