Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Thanksgiving break is a trick!!

As I sit here in the library,
missing class to do work for my next class
and wishing I could pass out on my bed,
I get sad thinking about last 3 weeks of the semester :(

Not just because my senior year will be half way over
but because sleepless nights of work await me,
and take up all my time so I can't enjoy time with others!

Everyone's all excited during the time leading up to Thanksgiving break,
for those few days to eat, sleep, and rest...
but when you come back...


time to turn in final projects & papers and prepare for finals!
Those few days of relaxation
(which aren't really so relaxing since you are running around everywhere w/ family & friends)
give you a tantalizing taste of freedom
only to take it away again :(

I sound like a crazy, paranoid person :/

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Stuffing & Thanks

I'm waiting around for my family to come. This year they're coming over at 4 today, we seem to be eating earlier and earlier haha. Our Thanksgiving feast will include two turkeys (one from Giant and one from Whole Foods), three types of stuffing (my mom ordered some from Giant, my one cousin is bringing some from Boston Market, and my other cousin is making it), and an assortment of other American and Korean food :)

The picture above was taken a little over a year ago...man, little did I know what was in store for me for the remainder of 2009. Ah so crazy how much has happened this past year. Time is going so fast now!! I wasn't really looking forward to this school year, but I'm thankful for all the people who have put a :) on my face and given me advice/listened to me stress haha. Most importantly, "I thank and praise you, God of my ancestors: You have given me wisdom and power, you have made known to me what we asked of you, you have made known to us the dream of the king” (Daniel 2:23). I am thankful to have peace and direction in this world of chaos and darkness.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Edit: There was actually only one type of stuffing at our feast :( but it was delicious, homemade stuffing!! :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Working Through a Senior Year Crisis

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight"
Proverbs 3:5

happy mini me

Ah, it felt so good to have a nice long 2+ hour brunch today...haven't had one of those for a while. Us grandma seniors and sophomores sat around talking about elementary & middle school days. Topics included: good books we read (Boxcar children!), cakes & flowers for "becoming a woman" HAHA, using rice instead of glue for our school projects, and for one person, racing not boys, not girls, but men at the track and beating them when she was in middle school hahhahaha. Such good carefree days!! I miss reading for fun, I used to read like crazy when I was younger...

We also talked about looming post-college life :( I've been mad stressed about the future and feeling indecisive, but I'm finally starting to accept that I can't plan everything out right now. I make a schedule every night for what I'm going to do the next day. I don't necessarily stick to it, but I really enjoy making schedules and knowing I have a plan haha. I also really like making lists (hence the name of the blog). I've been trying to schedule the rest of my post-college life b/c I feel like I have to plan everything out right now and know each step, even though I can't really control what's going to happen.

happy & optimistic at my sixth grade graduation
stressed out & getting yogurt pretzels from Subin at 2 am to fuel my thesis proposal writing process :(

I've realized I am way too indecisive and need to trust in God! Life after college is not the end of the world, and I know I'm probably gonna look back on this time 5 years from now and think about how foolish and unnecessarily stressed out I was haha. Until now, I thought I had a set plan for my future, but I realized I have to be flexible and open to other options. These past few weeks definitely made me see that I have a lot of growing up to do. Even though I know things will probably get crazy second semester, I will find my peace in the Lord and trust that He will guide me...